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I don’t know why, but I decided to put a movie on for background noise whilst I cleaned/did chores/did things that needed to be done but I always get sucked into watching it for a little bit, which turns into a long bit and then I need to keep watching the whole drama again.

This time it’s 1 Litre of Tears 1リットルの涙


I think I’ve mentioned it before in my blog somewhere, but it’s a true story and it’s very sad! You’ll shed at least 1 litre of tears!!
But in relation to that, I wanted to write about my own current “sickness”. I’ve had it for about 2 months now, maybe 2.5 months… And it has pretty much worn away my patience. I’m not sure where I got it from, but I think it’s around the time I went to Thailand or Okinawa. Anyway, I was infected with scabies. ヒゼンダニ. At first I wasn’t sure what these small pustule like things were, and thought that it was an allergic reaction as my fellow teachers had said that they had also had similar things in the past to allergic reactions from certain plants.

But it didn’t get better, so I went to a doctor and he looked at me for about 3 seconds and told me I had heat rash. I couldn’t believe that he could diagnose me within 3 seconds, but I was un-prepared to explain or say anything, so I received the anti-itch cream he prescribed and left. I even went back after 2 weeks because it didn’t get better, in fact it seemed to have gotten slightly worse, I was waking up during the night due to itchiness, I felt ashamed to let people see my skin, it was terrible, but he looked at my skin for about 3 seconds again and told me that it was definitely heat rash and it’ll take time to heal.

I didn’t know what to do, so I put up with the itch and went on a holiday to Singapore and the Philippines as I had bought the tickets about half a year ago. I know those 2 countries are hot, but I didn’t want to waste an opportunity like that so I went. Even though it was torture for my skin, it was super itchy and looked super fugly, I was able to survive because I didn’t know anyone there.

Anyway, I came back to Japan, and in desperation, I asked my friends for a good doctor that they could recommend. I went to Izumiootsu to see a Doctor Mochida (泉大津の持田先生) and he finally diagnosed me with scabies. Not that I was happy to hear that I had scabies, but at least I had a name for the disease and could start to get it properly treated.

I saw the doctor today, which has been for the 5 week in a row now and looks like things are starting to get better.

I suppose the point of this blog is to appreciate everything you have and can do. Just like the main character from the drama 1 Litre of Tears, when you have a sickness for a long time, that’s when you truly appreciate everything you had before. I’m lucky that what I have is treatable, and I definitely can’t wait until I can go to sleep without waking up due to itchiness, I can walk around and not be scared in case someone sees my skin.

This is something that I definitely don’t want to experience again. If you think you might have scabies, it starts with red spots, maybe some small pustules/blister like “water” under the skin, itchiness, etc, go ask a doctor for a check up. The sooner you start treatment, the better.



So I returned to Japan from Australia today as I went back to Australia during Japan’s “Golden Week“, basically a week long holiday.

When I was back in my Country, I spoke with my grandparents who have decided to move out into a semi-looked after retirement village where they don’t have to cook and wash dishes and maintain gardens. Besides the face that they are getting older, do you ever actually sit down and think about the fact that you’re getting older? I think the answer is yes. Whilst this probably doesn’t apply to a lot of people, my grandma said something which struck something within me. She said “You always think you’re getting older. You always say you’re getting older and when you get older you’ll do such and such. Even when you’re old, you continue to say ‘when I’m old’ or ‘when I’m older’ but it’s a sad and painful fact when you have to admit to yourself that ‘I am old’ “. 

Not only that, on the aeroplane ride coming back to Japan I watched a Japanese movie with the English title: 1778 Stories of Me and My Wife. []
I don’t want to ruin the story line of it, but it really made me realise that I have to knuckle down and do the things that I want to do in my life before it’s too late and I’m at a point in my life where I have to admit ‘I am old’.

Back to teaching tomorrow. I hope that I can help inspire some of my students (all of them would be great) to reach out and do the things that they want to do. To waste your life is just a waste of the world’s resources.


Posted: December 21, 2010 in Home
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Tonight I called my aunty back in Sydney which was great, and I got to talk to my little cousin too. I can’t believe how much he is growing up! It’s only been 5 months since I saw him, but just in that time has been a dramatic change! Soon he’ll be a young man! Time is flying by so quickly!

Another year comes as another year passes.

I also talked with my mum. It was good to talk to her again. It hasn’t been that long I don’t think, but it is definitely nice to hear a mothers voice. みんな忙しいそうって思います。もうすぐクリスマスだって、2回目オーストラリアにはいません。お母さんと話してて、おばあさんはちょっと元気じゃないみたいです。明日の昼からお母さんは僕に送ってあげるけど、いい事か悪い事か、今分かりません。おばあさんは癌のせいって思ってます。今年、お父さんのお母さんは亡くなりましたと、来年にはお母さんのおかあさんも? ちょっと嫌だ。

정말 슬프다. 지금, 생각하는것이 너무 많다. 좀 호주에 돌아가고싶다. 내 가족들이 보고싶다고, 애기하고싶다고, 웃고싶다고….
요즘, 날마다 울고싶습니다. 왜 그래서..?? 크리스마스 때문에?! 아무도 모르겠다.

I don’t even know if my Korean makes any sense. I don’t even know if my Japanese makes any sense.
I think I’m just tired.
If I keep thinking of happy thoughts, I hope that I can have happy dreams. I’ve never been overseas by myself for this long. Actually, I’ve never been overseas for this long.